a few minutes to rest

so i had this very warm & fuzzy picture of what could be today: kids playing together, me getting everyone ready to brave the mall playground, going out to lunch, coming home to finish laundry, pack for our thanksgiving travels, & nap times for two, a tivo show for me.

that dream day is such bull honkey!

instead, i have the tv tuned into the pbs cartoons for adeline to hopefully become warped into tv-land kid zombie so i can get the (more than i thought) laundry done & try to keep amelia from cutting her fingers off with the scissors she commandeered while i was doing that laundry in the basement (3 minutes, folks! 3 minutes is all it takes for a climbing toddler to get onto the computer desk, pull all the files out, fling papers everywhere, empty the contents of the colored pencils holder, find the very sharp scissors & then open them...i arrived just in time to see her sticking her finger between the blades. it was a bad mom moment).

am i not organized enough for days like this? i know i have this energy depletion problem, but golly gee willuckers (spelling is wrong on that last word, but that was a saying my sibs & i used to say a lot. or maybe it was just dorky me). days like this where i have an agenda (packing, laundry, hopefulness that my girls will play together long enough that we can get out the door to *do* something)...well, days like this usually leave me feeling hopeless, lonely, bored, antsy, etc. name all the bad things stay at home moms feel & that is me today.

SO. insert change of attitude here *attitude change*

i am thankful that i have two adorable, mischievous, independent, beautiful girls to occupy my time. all day. all my time.

i am thankful that i have a husband who i can call & rant about what the girls are doing at that moment & he is able to get me to laugh about it (if i'm not already crying, then he's able to get my crying to stop at least).

i am thankful that i have friends who are going through the same crumminess, not b/c they are miserable at times also, but b/c we can relate & encourage one another.

i am thankful for tv & than adeline finally seems to grasp that it can entertain her for longer than 15 minutes. *finally!*

i am thankful for the gate at the top of the stairs that is keeping the two rascals at bay right now.

i am thankful for our parents who are all amazing grandparents & who help us out in so many ways.

i am thankful that i have medicine to help me feel better (i am feeling better, mostly).

i am thankful for fleece. & electric blankets. & our furnace (even though it's ancient & loud).

must go, i think amelia is trying to climb over the gate now...