restless

this morning i woke up feeling just plain miserable. i had slept in until--GASP--9 a.m.which means that i missed my 7:30 a.m. dose of acetaminophen. so my muscles were so sore that i could barely turn my head left or right or move my shoulders one iota. my head was pounding with the typical post-brain surgery headache. etc etc blah blah.

finally, the coffee kicked in, as did the meds & i felt a bit better. we (my mom, the girls, & my 13 year old cousin, matthew, who is addy's new best friend) did an outing to the westerville rec center...where adeline tore it up on the indoor playground. such intensely happy giggling.

so on the stages of recovery, i have hit whatever number it is: restless. i want to be better, *now*. as the nurse said to my family as i was coming in & out of anaesthetic, "she's {me} a fighter. that's good for long term recovery, but not good for short term recovery" then finished her sentence by pushing more morphine into my iv line, kindly sending me to sleep. i think she was also the one i was mumbling & arguing with about the catheter (sorry, nurse. morphine, what else can i say?!). this restlessness is good, b/c next week my mom is returning to work from monday through wednesday & i have folks here off & on during the day but this starts my shift from patient back to full time mom. i'm excited & terrified.