little miss sunshine from westerville

ever since i saw little miss sunshine i have pictured that little girl as adeline. it just seems to fit. addy's personality is popping out all over the place right now & it's so much fun to see. today, the roto tiller guy (we don't own a roto tiller, so we paid some dude $50 to do it for us! yea!) anyway, this guy who was a grandpa himself kept saying how happy & sunny adeline was...our neighbor who was outside working most of the day also made that comment today, as did the workers at the gym day care. people just smile at adeline & i love it b/c i know her giddy personality is FOR SURE transferable.

so here's a new one: we think adeline has an imaginary friend. for quite some time she's been saying this word: guy-ga. i have tried to figure out who or what she is talking about & can't come up with anything! so tonight after her bath she's looking into the mirror & laughing hysterically & then starts babbling away & laughs again. this goes on for a minute or two & she keeps pointing at the mirror & saying 'GUY-GA!' so i ask what is guy-ga. she points to herself in the mirror & says 'guy-ga' & then claps & does a little dance. i ask if guy-ga is herself in the mirror & she shakes her head 'no!' & then i ask if guy-ga is a person & she nods. then i ask her guy-ga is her friend & she nods again. & then laughs, of course.

she then again keeps babbling away towards the mirror & then away from the mirror, as if she's talking to someone. this is amazingly humorous to watch, i'm telling you. i believe i have read that imaginary friends often start around age 3, but i guess 2 1/2 is workable. i did ask a few others questions about this guy-ga character & i will continue to investigate their friendship to see if it is indeed an imaginary friend & then also if this friend is worthy enough to be addy's first good friend. i promise you i will never buy a car seat or set up a meal for this guy-ga, though. that seems a bit creepy. but i'm all for imagination.

in other news...we bought an ottoman from target tonight. & it stinks! then i remembered my friend becky's blog post about returning an ottoman to target a few weeks after they bought it b/c of the smell. why doesn't my memory work faster, like when we were in the store ready to purchase this ottoman? anyway, we will be gone this weekend, so i'm hoping the smell will be gone by our return.

in addition to waving, wes also thinks that amelia can give high-5's. he even showed me & she sort of slapped him one. waving, high-5's, eating solids (which today she had sweet potato chunks & loved them, but sorta gagged when swallowing. i guess that's the price you pay for wanting to eat chunks of food as a babe).

and wes is sooo proud: this roto tiller guy talked about the amazing near acre garden he & his wife have & how they compost & such...& he complimented wes on our garden soil & compost (wes had put compost down to be tilled under). he was beaming, i tell you. wes is fairly new to the veggie gardening trade & i must say he is a quick learner.

& we purchased portable dvd players for the car. we caved & did it...i just can't take another near 3 hour car ride in the back seat trying to keep adeline from melting down. she has hated being in a car seat since day 1, literally (on the drive home from the birthing center, she screamed the entire 35 minutes...& not the new baby wee little cry, it was amazingly loud & highly alarming as new parents & she has been that way in the car seat since then. it's amazing we still have our sanity intact). so an hour or so of dora doesn't seem like such a bad thing compared to the alternatives.

& we're off to avon lake tomorrow! have a good weekend.

so what is she?

what is a 2 1/2 year old considered? a toddler or a preschooler? i use them both, but she only toddles when tired & she is going to preschool next year, so... oh the confusions of parenthood!

some fun things that have happened to us recently:
1. adeline put the entire new roll of toilet paper in the toilet (unravelled, of course). i have yet to take it out. getting close to toilets make me cringe.

2. amelia ate her first few french fries yesterday at lunch & dinner.

3. adeline & amelia are both starting separation anxiety...at the same time. amelia's is more of when no one else is around, not just me. she does great in the gym day care for 45 minutes. adeline wants wes & i both...she even cried at her 'fake mama judy's' home yesterday (isn't judy wonderful? she offered to babysit addy for the afternoon!). how can they do this to me at the same time?

4. we finally sold our bedroom furniture & now have no place to keep most of our clothes. & we can NOT agree on new furniture protocol...do we buy the amish stuff that is uber pricey, but will last a long lifetime? or do we buy sorta cheap, but functional? will our style change over time? what color to paint the bedroom? here's a shock for all who've been in any of my homes: i'm voting for WHITE!

5. my white tulips came up yellow. darn it! we have planted all white & green flowering plants in the front yard. i've heard/read that this could be caused by acidic soil, but we have basic soil. darn it again.

6. somehow i have adjusted the font size on my blogger dashboard to a minuscule level, so i can barely read what i'm typing. how did i do this & how do i undo it?

7. i wait excitedly for the playgroup i attend every other friday...& wes took tomorrow off so we can leave for his parents' house after lunch. so i can't go to the playgroup. which is a bummer!

8. adeline noticed the moon for the first time last night as we were going into the amish originals store in westerville. you know, that white moon that's in the early evening sky? she pointed to it & said "DAH!" to which i replied, 'it's the moon, adeline & it's made of cheese.' & then she said "mmmmmm". *smile* that will make up for us telling her that santa claus & the easter bunny aren't real & neither is larry the leprechaun, judy crawford. ;o)

9. we are getting our beds roto tilled today! viva la dirt!

10. adeline also dumped a nearly full box of cheerios onto the floor & then mixed them with my cereal bowl of milk that she found on the counter (from hours before) & then didn't want to eat them b/c it was soggy. so we let griswold eat them. does that count as money going down the drain?

as expected.

tonight amelia was very very grumpy. could be that she only slept a total of 45 minutes between two naps today. could be...very possible.

we were eating dinner & wes was feeding amelia her baby food. i believe it was green beans & rice cereal. (blech!) i don' t like veggies very much but i don't let my kids know this, of course. i eat veggies in front of the them. wes loves veggies so there you go, they have a good food role model parent.

anyway, we were eating dinner & amelia was just plain pissed about something. she was arching her back, she was crying in protest to her food, she wouldn't open her mouth for a bite. during her wails wes was able to sneak a few bites in but that's about all she ate. then wes picked her up & did the ea- &-baby-hold. amelia started grabbing for his plate & wes was doing the baby-grabbing-for-your-plate-as-you-eat dance. (btw: those are our official names for these acts). after a minute of watching him do this ever so delicate dance of eating & holding a squirming baby, i said something like 'ha! try giving her some of your pasta...' more in the idea of watching her spit it out & turn red with disgust.

not our gerbickian baby! she had the widest mouth possible as the noodle came towards her mouth, her arms flapping wildly. she began to gum it to shreds while holding it with her entire fist. she then protested & grabbed for more pasta. she ate maybe 4 or 5 pasta thingies (hhm, they were the big ones, i forget what they're called, but we're not talking about a little spaghetti noodle here...). she was so content & was looking around the table at all of us with this 'i'm part of this family & i can eat at your food too' look & seemed very proud of herself.

& people wonder why we are planting so much food for our wee little family...we have eating monsters! amelia is eating solids at 7 months?! oh my. here we go again; eating monster #2.

also, we sold the bedroom set from wes' grandpa tonight! yea! now we can go shopping 'for real' as wes would say. b/c we don't have a dresser for our clothes now. DOI! silly gerbicks don't plan ahead very well (okay, i thought of this today, but wes didn't seem to think it was likely they would purchase & take it tonight...ooh, but they were ready). wes was very sad to see it go & after the girls were in their beds he went outside & dug around in the garden a bit with a very sad look about him. & now he's eating dairy queen ice cream...but! we are one step closer to painting our bedroom & getting our own dresser & bed frame. oooohhhhhhh!

the reason i exercise.

this morning was a bad one. the kind of day a mama (or daddy) can predict even before you get out of bed. as i lay in bed at 7 a.m. i could already hear adeline throwing a tantrum downstairs as wes tried to give her breakfast & then i also heard amelia crying her little baby whine. *sigh* it's going to be a long day, i said to myself. i then spent about 20 minutes cleaning our bedroom (b/c someone is coming over tonight to look at the bedroom set we are selling on craigslist.org which is a boy's bedroom set from wes' grandpa gerbick & yea, we have girls, so...sell it is). anyway, the dresser is in our bedroom, so a stranger will be in my bedroom! yikes. time to clean like mad. i mean, our bedroom is the ugliest room in the house by far.

anyway, tuesday & thursdays are my gym days. we HAVE to be out of the door by 8:35 for various reasons (the most important being getting amelia home in time for her nap). so adeline goes about throwing tantrums all morning & after arguing with wes since 6:45 about what she was going to have for breakfast...well, mama gave her the ultimatum in a very loud voice "you WILL eat your oatmeal at the table, right NOW" & off she went, crying. but, she wet to the table, right. so then wes consoles her b/c i was so stern with her & she pouted & that made me a bit angry that wes was playing the 'good parent/bad parent' (without realizing it, i believe, to his defense). then wes & i get into an argument.

bad day it is.

we made it to the gym, a little late, but we made it (& i remembered to wear my gym shoes). adeline for the first time in her life doesn't want to go into the gym day care. she is crying, clinging to me, hiding behind the door, etc etc. she has never done this there! but i still drop her off & make my way to the locker room & the locker i have chosen is jammed. so i find another. on & on my bad day continues like this.

low & behold, the new times magazine is still available & i snag it to read while elliptisizing (yes, i believe that's my own word). i begin to read the cover story & i really like it. i can feel my stress level going lower & lower & lower. i actually start to think about things other than my kids & their quirks & routines & cuteness.

i think about my college professor, dr. ross. oh, how i loved dr. ross! he was maybe in his early 60's. he marched with dr. martin luther king jr. several times. he had great stories & life experiences & he just inspired something in me. most of the class members (all social work students, as it was a social work class) didn't like him b/c all he did was tell stories & bring in current news to debate & discuss. he hardly ever lectured, but when he did it was somehow also inspiring (he tested from the book which means we actually had to read the book, which i also liked). anyway. dr. ross let me take 2 1/2 weeks off without a grade cut for my wedding & honeymoon...he also gave me the names & phone numbers & addresses of all the senators & representatives in ohio when my brother was suddenly not able to come home from iraq on leave to attend my wedding (well, i was sobbing my eyes out the entire class & he asked me to stay after to talk with him... & he was just so wonderful, really. he was so stinkin' mad about the situation with me, but didn't bash the military or the war, which is unusual for someone in his position...i tell ya, he was a great professor). he inspired me in ways that no other professor ever has or did. not just in social work, but to speak out about current issues, to have an articulate opinion about social problems.

then i thought about things i have given up to be a stay at home mom. i think the giving up part of me started even before i was a mom...wes & i agreed before we were married that we both wanted a stay at home parent, namely ME (although days like today i think wes would be the more patient parent to choose for this job). my friend, holli reminded me of this a few weeks ago; i had completely forgotten about it! right after wes & i were married, marlene nathan (the wife of the vineyard of columbus' pastor & she was also the new women's pastor) asked me to sit in on a brainstorming meeting for the direction of the women's ministry. when they all found out i was newly married, it was suggested that i take a year off before becoming part of the 'leadership' in the women's ministry to focus on the grime of the first year of marriage. well, wes & i then moved to boise a few months later & that was all forgotten about. basically, it was an honor to even be chosen by marlene... so that was the first thing i gave up.

the 2nd is the career. i was asked by my boss to head up a new program in a school district that had just decided to start a 'therapeutic learning classroom' in their elementary, middle, & high schools. i had only been working with this program for 8 months & i didn't even apply for this position & 6 other co-workers did. & instead they asked me...& i turned them down b/c wes & i were planning on (me) getting pregnant within a year (it was--shock!--6 months later that i was pregnant). instead, i was in charge of the high school program for the upcoming school year. my point is: i did give up a career to stay at home. of course, i can work again whenever i choose to; wes isn't forcing me to stay home in any way. & it was just a few months ago that i made the final decision to stay at home at least until amelia is in elementary school. & i'm okay with that. but it's important for me to remember that i was really good at what i did & i have to mourn that loss. b/c i (mostly) enjoy staying home with the girls. it's fun & it gives me joy to see them growing up & changing. social work would never give me this much joy, i can tell you that for sure! hhmm, but i think the stress level is eerily similar...

then i thought about the economic situation right now. when wes & i moved back to columbus we looked at, oh geez, probably 40 houses? we chose to buy a house that we could totally afford, not using the 'buy what your salary/income will be in 5 years' theory. & turns out we ended up with a house that was totally not updated (it was built in 1974). but it had potential & a fenced in back yard & it was on the lower end of our price range. we have done a lot of work to this house, mostly painting & putting new light fixtures in & tearing out some not-so-retro 1970's home features. our improvements included painting the kitchen cabinets & putting new hardware on the cabinet doors & a new home depot off-the-shelves countertop & sink. i'm pretty lucky that wes is so amazingly handy around the house & with tools. anyway, we didn't replace the cabinets, although they are nearly falling apart in some places. we didn't replace flooring although the tile is white & hideous & the carpet is stained & just plain ugly...all b/c we don't have the cash for it.

i remember one of my friends came over & she just couldn't believe that we didn't just replace the cabinets & flooring & put all of it on credit cards or a 2nd mortgage. when we replied that we like to buy things we actually have the cash for...really, she just couldn't understand why we felt the need to buy things with cash when credit was so easily available & the cabinets & flooring were so ugly.

that line of thinking is part of the 'why' of the current economic problems, at least in my opinion. yes, credit is readily available & we do have excellent credit. but it's credit! it's not cash & no matter how you play it, credit = debt...& living outside of your means, your income. again, i'm lucky to be married to a man who thinks this way also b/c right now we're doing pretty good compared to other families that have maxed themselves out on credit. & i know lots of other families who live the same way we do & i know we're not the golden stars among everyone (meaning, the only ones who are doing it 'the right way, according to us'). it's almost humorous to me to hear economists say that people should save a certain amount & not be so extended on credit...yes, HELLO?! but some people have been taught that having the beautiful home full of the best of the best is what will make you happy. or the brand new car or whatever it is that's desirable. (of course, i'm not saying that having these things is wrong...i guess only if you can truly afford them???). so there was that line of thought while exercising.

anyway, then i thought about how i want to get involved with something...maybe the food pantry at the vineyard of columbus (where we have decided to go now! i'm so glad the church decision is over). just get involved with something more than my kids; something social-change minded. b/c that's me, i am pre-wired to have a social/cultural awareness & desire to help others in need. it's just in me & i can't change that. the past few years have been taxing on me partly b/c there's been so much going on (baby, moving cross country, fixing up our house, then pregnant & baby again with a toddler, then sick most of the winter, etc etc) that i haven't had time to focus on the outside world. but i'm beyond ready now....it's just a matter of convincing my kids to be tame enough to let me do this & find a great day time & evening babysitter for some mama-alone time (& date night! wes & i NEED date night).

okay, those are my thoughts while exercising today. this is all pretty normal for my 30 minutes on the elliptical. it clears my head like nothing else & it's the hour & a half i need every week to keep me sane. i know for a fact that if i had not been able to exercise today, i would be losing it; i'd be 'that parent' others look at with horror as they yell at their child for a minor offense. thankfully, the elliptical & i got together today.


in other news: i seriously think millie is waving! i swear it. i know she's only 7 months old, but...she moves her hand up & down towards herself. she is so adorable.

& adeline is just as ornery as ever...i don't think a non-ornery kid could come from me, though. as a child, my nickname from my parents was 'feisty' so you figure it out.

boo hoo; weekend is over already.

we had a busy weekend! oh my. friday afternoon & evening was hair cuts for the girls, then off to costco to spend gobs of money. saturday we hosted "the gerwig family meal" so that entails cooking & cleaning & then the enjoying of family time. today wes held a beer brewing tutorial for my dad & two of my dad's friends while my mom, adeline, & the wives of the friends went to the mall...& totally shopped adeline out! it didn't help that saturday night was a live one: millie cried for two hours (3 -5 a.m.) & adeline vomited at 10:15, 11:20, & 11:45 p.m. & then was up crying/sick/miserable about 4 times throughout the night. oh are we tired...

adeline doesn't appear to be sick. it's just another one of those fluke vomiting nights. we have no idea why she does this & the pediatrician can't seem to figure it out either. so unless we want to subject her to lots of random tests we're stuck not knowing the why of her vomiting.

anyway, this is what adeline was wearing after a no-nap nap time the other day. she cracks me up...she has on a striped shirt, swimsuit top around her waist, (pair of inside out, backwards underwear), too small pants, then leg warmers pulled up over the bell bottomed pants.

my dad helping adeline show off her new easter hat. i was totally incapable of resisting this adorable splurge. it seriously sucked me in to a vortex & wouldn't let me out until i purchased it...a very cute $8.50, i must say. & my dad looks great in it!

adeline now showing off her new hat & sunglasses. i think i should have a countdown to the number of days it will take to lose these sunglasses. this is the first year i haven't bought the strap-on ones for her...letting go of control here.

adeline feeding chloe whipped cream on saturday night. i mean, she's sharing her favorite food in the world! what a girl! chloe didn't seem to understand why addy was so excited about it, but she ate it anyway.

zoe going down the slide! she was ECSTATIC about this slide. i seriously don't think i've ever heard happy shrieking this loud before...

addy finally giving in & eating her own whipped cream & fudge cake.

millie in her new sunhat. a-dor-a-ble.

it is futile that we saved all of addy's clothes. ya know, some of them work...but some don't. millie doesn't have the huge adeline head (or belly), so all of addy's infant/baby hats don't fit on millie yet. so millie gets her own new sun hats. (if you don't know this already: we are very much into sun protection around here...have you seen how pale our skin is?! thus the sun hats & sunglasses & if you ever see our diaper bag in the summer: tubes of 80+ sunblock. oh yes, we are protected here.)

of course, as with every minor life event, we have a video for yee blog readers & grandparents...amelia's first hair cut! i would have left the audio on b/c millie was doing lots of laughing & cooing...but then you also hear adeline screeching & whining b/c she didn't want her hair cut & then you would hear me saying stern things to the grumpy adeline.

& b/c we didn't blog at the time & i don't even know if her grandparents have seen this...here is addy's first hair cut video, done by wes just over two years ago. the woman cutting her hair was our neighbor, amy houck. she is an amazing woman with amazing hair cutting skillzzz. she has many stories of the gerbickians crazy hair problems...she actually mentioned before addy was born that we would have kids with, ahh, 'spirited' hair & how true that is. we miss the houcks! it just wasn't the same taking amelia to a salon to get her hair cut...nothing like going next door to get a wonderful cut & sometime even get prayed for. what a family. anyway, enjoy this one, too.
(NOTE: the movie is only about 6 minutes, don't know why it says 15...)

& last but not least, a quote from a historical figure that is MUY applicable to today:

"i believe that banking institutions are more dangerous to our liberties than standing armies."
-thomas jefferson

i agree.

For the love of whipped cream...

So around Thanksgiving we bought a three pack of the spray whipped cream (Costco!) and quickly burned through two of them during the holidays. Then on the day Heidi took her grandma Hazel to the eye doctor, her grandma told Heidi to put whipped cream on Adeline's strawberries that she was eating at her uncle & aunt's house. So the next time Adeline had strawberries at our house, she insisted upon adding whipped cream, which we had that one left in the fridge, so we didn't think anything of it & let Adeline eat it with her strawberries.

That day began a love affair between Addy & whipped cream that continued until last week when it was finally empty. Some highlights included chicken nuggets and cream, peas and cream, pbj and cream, and on and on (there was even the gag-inducing mixture of ketchup & whipped cream on nuggets). There was whipped cream on just about every Addy plate for a long while. The love affair ended when the bottle was gone & we just said it like that; "it's gone Adeline, sorry" & then she proceeded to search the fridge & gave a very sad look. But she moved back to her ketchup love & all seemed great.

That leads to tonight when we went to Costco. We started by having the best 5 dollar family dinner money can buy at the food court and then went shopping. As we walked the aisles of the frozen foods most of our time was spent trying to keep Addy on track from running away, getting run over, or running into things like the very large red pole (oh yes, she did, smacked right into it with the side of her face). Until she spotted the whipped cream. The way she acted reminded of the greatest Christmas ever. There was clapping & jumping & shouting & jolly laughing & pointing & I think she was even drooling. Surprisingly we convinced her that we weren't going get the 3 pack of whipped cream but I wonder how long it will be before Addy's affair resumes....

rainy day blues

to start, this picture was taken yesterday. it is a bona-fide adeline marie outfit...she picked it all out. i hold up shirts until she chooses one. then i ask if she wants to wear a skirt or pants. she nods her head 'yes' to a skirt, so i showed her various skirts. she chooses one. then i ask if she wants to wear tights or leggins. she nods to tights. i show her the tights options & she chose these with hearts on them. wes & i commented that we never noticed the orange in the tights, but now that they are paired with the orange polka-dot top...the orange in the tights sort of pops out. our little fashionista! as you can see from her over dramatized smile, she is very proud of her outfit. the only problem was that she wanted to wear big girl undies & shortly after this outfit was put on, it had to be taken off b/c there was pee everywhere from a major accident. taking tights off that are soaked with pee is very nasty, indeed.

she wanted desperately to wear these shoes with the outfit...we appropriately call them her 'stripper shoes' but really they are simply her dress up shoes. that constantly fall off her feet, leaving her very frustrated. & mama frustrated... so i took a picture of her desired shoes instead & told her i would talk about them to everyone in the internet world.

this is how addy ends up most days during nap. she gets out of bed, tries on most of her clothes in her dresser, somehow ends up with, hopefully, something on her bottom (which is not much of a protection if she happens to pee while napping, or GASP, if she happens to poop while napping; sadly, this has happened several times & oh yuck yuck yuck). yesterday she found the bottoms to her bathing suit, turned them inside out, put them on, then attempted to put her jeans back on, backwards as well. then all this fun caused her to promptly fall asleep, half dressed, next to her door, on the floor. at least she sets up a nice nest with her pillow & stuffed animals.

& this is muscle-millie! she is standing on her own!

taken a few seconds before she lost her balance & smooshed her face into griswold's chair's legs, causing much sobbing & needed hugs & kisses.

& today...while i was putting millie down for a nap. i apparently forgot to latch the child-proof lazy susan that holds our cereal. so addy took advantage of my forgetfulness & poured herself a snack...in the salad spinner bowl (we keep it in 'her' cupboard, so she can pull random things out & play with them). what she didn't realize is that the salad spinner has holes in it...so there was a nice trail of cereal crumbs going from kitchen to living room. i guess that's why we invested in a wonderful vacuum, eh? (love love love the dyson). & this is a picture of addy watching veggie tales & eating out of her giantess cereal bowl.

& hhmm, what else? i have a list in my head of things i could be doing right now. here it is:

1. putting new recipes into my recipe folders
2. vacuuming
3. wiping floorboards & corners where YUCK has accumulated over the past 2 years
4. wiping slobber of dog & preschooler off windows

5. stretching my back (somehow i pulled a lower back muscle at the gym yesterday...major ouch)
6. internet shopping for a king size bed frame
7. explaining to adeline why she doesn't need such a large bowl for her snack...but i know that is pointless.

instead i am blogging! & i hear addy now pouring the rest of her snack onto the floor. wonderful. so i guess option 2 will happen now.

wait! i have to also mention that yesterday at the gym i did the "walk of shame" again. hhm, i guess i have failed to talk about the walk of shame before...it involves me at the gym, realizing i have failed to wear my gym shoes & what i have on my feet are slippers! seriously. thankfully the slippers i have on are crocs....thankfully. this is the 3rd time i have forgotten to wear gym shoes to the gym & instead have crocs on. the first time was while pregnant, so i didn't really care b/c i do such a low impact work out on the elliptical, i really didn't bother to be embarrassed. & who knows, maybe my feet were so swollen that my feet didn't fit into my gym shoes. the 2nd time was when i was on topamax...so that was again a great excuse...my brain wasn't properly functioning. but i was 'with it' enough to be slightly embarrassed...okay VERY embarrassed. i even asked them at the desk if it was okay that i worked out with only crocs on... the lady said, 'well, i've never been asked that before, let me call my boss'... DOI, seriously, you have to call your boss?! then i totally look like an idiot walking through the ellipticals & weights & treadmills...anyway, i thought to myself: don't do this again.
then yesterday was the 3rd time. i have no good excuse except i was desperately trying to get there just as the sprout's room was opening up at 8:45 so i could be done by 9:30 & home by 9:45 to get amelia in her crib by 10... i was in the locker room putting my bag in a locker & looked down & said aloud: "well, shit, i have forgotten my gym shoes again" & then every mom & grandma within 10 feet of me look at my feet & laugh hysterically. DOI, yes i felt like an idiot again. but the problem is that i can't go back & get the girls b/c i've already paid for the hour in the sprout's room (their day care)...so i just looked at the woman standing next to me & said 'well, i guess this is what i have to work with' & off i went to the elliptical.

i did a good work out for 30 minutes, then did yoga stretches instead of weights b/c--what if i dropped a weight on my feet?! so either the crocs or the yoga stretches that i haven't done in years made my back muscles hurt like nothing else i've ever felt before. it hurts to sit, hold millie, stand....everything hurts.

note to self: when going to the gym, remember your shoes! doi.