dah-dah...shhhh

that was what addy was saying when the first picture was taken. it's a slow whisper & it usually means she hears something in the distant. when she does it, my mama heart beats a bit stronger, it's that entertaining.

i love autumn; the warm colors, cool & even rainy weather, rib-sticking food, clothes & hats & sweaters, & even the wonderful smell of crunchy, dying leaves. every year i hunt around for the perfect hat for adeline & now amelia. it's discouraging & inspiring all at once b/c i know once i find it, i am very ecstatic, but it usually takes me at least a week or two & many many stores to find IT (like that commercial...the 'it' thing). here is addy in her hat. amelia's is light pink, grey, & off white stripes w/ two bunny-like pom poms. A-DORABLE. i don't know why i get such a kick out of hats. just do.

amelia's spike this morning...this is "au natur-al" ladies & gents! & look how happy she is. she's finally starting to give us her smiles & giggles on a more consistent basis. so far, mid-morning is her best part of the day. i love her little smiles, as does addy, who is holding her in this picture. she also has a tendency to stick her tongue out a lot, so delicious.

i think changing millie's diapers from now on will not happen when addy is awake. this is what i found after changing a diaper this afternoon: addy with her fingers in the desitin tub, smearing it on her face & licking it. this is the second time she's eaten desitin! why!? where does she come up with these ideas? it's not like it even smells enticing...really, it goes on her bottom. (i called the pediatrician just to make sure i know what to look for in case she gets sick from some butt-ish particles from the tub-o-desitin). i'm not a leash type of parent, but these past few weeks have been changing my mind a bit ;o)

OKAY. something has changed since i put a cloth diaper on addy. this is from amelia today...it's just a ball under her! help! the other ones fit better, so i think this is just a bit too big right now. she even wore one through nap time & didn't get wet (thanks christine!), so i may be out to find more of those & less of these (one similar to this leaked within 2 minutes...ugh, i already have enough laundry to do!). so she is literally lifted off the bed from the diaper. what is wrong here?

this week i have been concentrating on making this better by thinking more positively. letting things go, like expectations for amelia, addy, wes, & i (& even griswold...i guess he is a dog, he can't help that he sheds...) & focus on the good things. the smiles & the eating desitin times. this seems to be a recurring theme for me. i guess i'm realizing that i get stressed out when i lack sleep. so i'm using some of my social work intervention background to calm us all down a bit more. & i think it's working...until today & i was confronted with severe dysfunction from two medical offices, but i won't discuss that today. b/c it's all negative & i'm not going to go there. nope. what was that mantra from the 'psycho-social-rehabilitation-er' days?? your thoughts become your actions, your actions become your ____ (i forget the end, i'm sure i'll remember it at 3 a.m.) but it surmises that your thought are what start it all. then i thought of the saying 'if mama's not happy, no body's happy' & i want my family happy! so here's to a realistically happy family. *clink* your glasses.